...........what I Would've Become!..........

Some years ago, I really was a happy man n m also thankful 2 god that HE gave me those moments I really am...............
It true that I wasn't a music guy, I used 2 be but not enough.....................
after somedays my life started changing n suddenly I was like alone in the whole world, 1 by one all my loved one's gone.........................
I really wasn't in a position 2 do anything or even understand those things........
I became like a dead guy I was addicted to alcohol, cigarette etc.etc ................... even I commited suicide too.............
Some day I was sitting in the playground alone in the dark, my friend came n tried 2 cheer me up but u can't clean the dirt of decades in just 1 wash I believe...
He was listening song on his iPod so he just plug the phones into my ears n seriously the first thing I heard was despair...............
I was like being stabbed by those so, I decided 2 get as many pain I can bear.....
The song "quit playing games with my heart" by BSB , I could say that changed me n also give me the strength 2 stand again.................. "Show me the meaning of being lonely"....................gave me more pain n also taught me how 2 control it.....
I just tend 2 listen which sucks my heart out n then help me 2 pull myself together.....
I m thankful to those doctors who saved my life n also of my friend 2 introduced me with this lovely thing called music.............................