Bisexual Female In Jamaica

I'm a 43 year old female living in Jamaica which many of you may realize is a homophobic country. Anyways, I have known since I was a teenager that I'm attracted to women and had two short relationships with women. I am currently living with a wonderful man who wants to marry me soon, but I still have the urge to be with women and think it is unfair to marry him knowing how I feel. I don't want to lose him, but I also want to have a discreet relationship with a female. Do you think I'm unreasonable? I hate the way this is making me feel but I'm who I am. Only two persons know that I'm bisexual and those are the ones I made love with. My family and friends don't know. Do you think I should open up to my fiancee? I need advice.
Kareenfairlady Kareenfairlady
41-45, F
Nov 30, 2012