My Life'S Not Where It'S Supposed To BeI'm 31 years old. I went to college and got a degree but didn't enjoy what I was doing. Plus I went through a severe period of addiction for which I am in treatment now.
I'm working at a Vets office and I love working with animals. I live with my boyfriend and his family. The thing is I just feel like my life is not progressing the way it should. This thought really invades my every move.
I know that you are not supposed to compare yourself to others, but I guess I don't know any other way. I just feel like everyone I know (including all of my sisters) are married, have successful careers are buying houses and having kids. I just feel like such a loser, it sounds so cheesy, but there's no better way to describe it.
I feel like I'm going nowhere, like I'm nothing and honestly it makes me anti-social and depressed. It makes me not want to talk to people about my life and even makes me tempted to lie about certain situations in order to not feel so pathetic.
I used to be so great at school and feel very accomplished, I just kind of feel like on the bottom of the heap.
I want to stay in this career field and I'm thinking about going back to school to be a vet tech, but I'll never be able to make any real $ doing that and I just don't know if I'll ever be able to have those things that everyone else has.
I feel like my time is running out to have a 'real life' and I just don't want to end up an unsuccessful spinster living in someone's couch. I know everything is not always better on the other side, but I just can't help but think that these things are things I want and would make my life whole.