Fresh Start Chapter 53

Jirra stared at the ceiling from her bed. There was moonlight pouring in from her window. She thought about what Lindsey had said; it wasn't that different from the conversation she'd had with Tara. What was the harm in seeking bodily pleasure? she thought.

She slowly reached down and slipped her hands under the t-shirt she wore as a nightgown. Very cautiously, she began to touch her nipples. At first there was nothing, but as she continued to rub them they began to harden. A new sensation of pleasure began to emanate from her nipples, and it slowly spread through her entire body.

This was very strange, as she had been used to sexual pleasure being focused in one area. She found that by changing the direction and intensity of her rubbing the pleasure changed correspondingly.

Jirra continued to rub her nipples with one hand as her other hand slipped down towards her vagina. When her fingers first touched herself, she was shocked to feel that she was moist. This was something totally new.

Slowly she began to rub the outside of her vagina, just gently rubbing up and down slowly along the outside. To her surprise, the amount of liquid increased. She rubbed slightly harder, and her fingers began to enter her body.

What was also shocking was that, while she didn't feel close to climaxing, she was feeling it in her entire body. She had thought that it would have been somewhat similar to what she had known as Josh, but it wasn't. It wasn't the fast build up to an explosion of mostly localised pleasure. No, her whole body was tingling. She wasn't sure if this was the way it was supposed to feel, but it felt too good to stop.

Jirra wriggled in delight as she continued down her new path of sexual exploration. She also found that she was making noises that she didn't think were possible. They were moans of ecstasy as she neared climax. Any hesitation was long gone as she worked herself to sexual contentment.

Jirra's first ****** as a woman was an explosion of pure unadulterated bliss. She felt wave after wave of pleasure shoot through her body as she squirmed in delight. When it was over, all she could do was lay there and try to catch her breath.

In between breaths, Jirra let out a single word. "Wow!"

She was initially too exhausted to move, and so she just stared at the ceiling. Eventually, she regained enough strength to get up. She walked into her bathroom and turned on the lights. There was no disguising the look of joy on her face, and she began to giggle. One ****** wasn't about to change her mind about her gender identity, but it sure did feel good, she thought.

The ****** was so different. There was a feeling of contentment and bliss, totally different from the way she had felt when she had pleasured herself as Josh.

She decided to take a bath. The warm water felt very nice against her body.

Jirra's sexual discovery didn't go unnoticed by Liz. Even through the closed bedroom door, Liz had heard Jirra's vocalisations. She debated on what do next and decided to put the kettle on; if Jirra wanted to talk, she would make herself available.

She prepared a mug of tea and thought about her first time. Her parents had been away for the weekend; still, she had been afraid that someone might have heard her. Travis had always gently kidded her about how loud she was during sex. She guessed that Jirra had inherited her volume from her.

A short time later, Jirra walked into the kitchen, wearing a t-shirt, shorts and her robe. At first, she was surprised to see her mum was still up, and then her shock turned to embarrassment.

Seeing her daughter's face, Liz smiled back softly. "It's okay, Roo. You want to talk about it?"

Jirra felt her face turning red and nodded.

"The kettle should still be hot enough if you want some tea," offered Liz.

Jirra nodded and reached for her mug. Liz waited until Jirra sat down with her mug of Earl Grey.

"Was I that loud?" asked a very sheepish Jirra.

"No, but you were loud. It's okay, so am I," replied Liz with a wink.

Jirra laughed. "Really?"

Liz nodded.

"I hadn't planned on doing what I did; it just sort of happened," explained Jirra.

"Roo, it's okay. Everyone does it."

Jirra was a little caught back by this. Her mum wasn't telling her anything new; still it was another new experience talking about sex with her. She'd had "The Talk" with Dad during a camping trip, but this was different.

"You need to explore your body. There's no morality about this," continued Liz.

"It was so different," blurted out Jirra.

"You definitely have a unique opportunity to compare," added Liz.

Jirra smirked. "That's true."

"Did you enjoy it?"

Jirra nodded.

"I'm going to ask you something; think before you answer. Would you like me to buy you a vibrator?"

Jirra's eyes opened up. "What?"

"It can help, trust me on this one," continued Liz, as she sipped her tea.

"You mean... you use one?" asked Jirra. There was a stunned look on her face.

"Of course."

Jirra leaned over the table and whispered. "Did Dad know?"

Liz smiled. "Roo, he bought one for me. Due to his deployments, we were separated a lot. He understood that, just like a man, a woman needs to find relief."

Jirra shook her head softly. "Wow."

Liz reached over and took Jirra's hand in hers. "It's okay."

Jirra nodded.

"Does that mean you want me to get you one?"

Jirra nodded again.


"I'd say this was the strangest conversation that I've ever had, but I think the period conversation was stranger," observed Jirra.

"It has been a strange few weeks," concurred Liz.

Jirra sipped her tea. She seemed lost in thought for a moment. She finished her tea and got up. "Thanks, Mum. I'm going back to bed."

Liz stood up and hugged her. "Good night, Roo."

Jirra put her empty mug in the sink and started out of the kitchen. "Good night."
Becnme Becnme
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3 Responses Jan 9, 2013

Amazing, shes learning to be a women. I wonder if she will change her mind on girls only thing.

Time will tell.

I can only wonder what that 'lost in a thought for a moment' thought was?
This might be the turnaround needed.
I have to read on to find out.

no turning back now, once told its a done deal :)

A voyage of self discovery :)

I cant wait ...