Her StoryShe said : "Baby, I slept with someone."
He looked down and there was silent. His face changed, the excitement in his eyes died.
She tried and peer into his eyes in search of a response.
She looked down at her cold, dry palms and took several small breaths, still waiting.
"When?" He said
"2 weeks ago, after my Paris flight."
The silence continued. It was deafening.
He was hoping to make love to her tonight but seems like the atmosphere now deemed to heavy for it.
There was no eye contact for a while, he was deep in his thoughts trying to utter a question out of the million that is crushing into his brains now.
He sank in to the bed.
She sat at the corner of the bed, waiting with her hands clutched tight.
"Why did you do it?" He probed.
She realizes that this is the question that she has no answer for.
"I don't know." tears rolled down her cheek.
"Are you sure you are not making this up to break up with me?"
She was taken aback. "Of course not! It doesn't make me look good by confessing this but i have to. We have always been honest with each other. This is definitely not something i want to hide from you. I'm telling you this because i love you and you need to know everything. I don't feel good hiding something like this from you. It is definitely not me."
He was trying so hard to digest the truth. He could not believe that this is happening to him. He has cheated in all his relationship in the past. Finally he found someone whom he mend his ways for, she failed him.
He was crushed yet staying inconceiveably clam.
She wept softly, the tears were uncontrollable while she looked up at him.
He slouched into the heaps of pillow by the bed stand, sighing.
He looked up and saw remorse em
He reached to hug her, it hurts to see his baby cry. The hug made her weaker and she wept even more.
"I don't understand. You said you love me yet you can cheat on me." She looked down but he tipped her face up examining her moist cheeks. Looking into her eyes, he asked "Do you love me?"
She felt sadness slowly engulfing her at her core. She was ashamed to say it out but she did. "I love you."
He pulled her into his arms, his scent somehow had a comforting wave of warmth streaming into her. He squeezed her so tight, fearing it might be the last.
"So why did you do it?"
"I don't know. I was depressed ever since that Paris flight, i thought you didn't love me enough. It has been 2 years since you told me you want to move in with me. I waited and waited. every time i asked, its the same answer, you say you are trying but it seems to me you were doing less than you should. When? When will we be able to see each other everyday? How long do i have to wait for you? Give a time, a reason to stay strong, baby."
"I know this is a lame excuse for my cheat but it happened. I was drunk that night. But i consciously accepted the invite and had drinks and at the end walked in with him to his hotel room. That is the whole truth." She continued. "i cannot lame it on anything else but myself. I chose to cheat, thats it."
In his heart he applauded her courage for saying it out but still, he wished she hadn't. The truth was to sharp to handle. The one woman that he gave his heart to had failed her. For the past 2 years, they both had pride themselves on their faithfulness. None other relationship they have seen even came close to what they had, let alone theirs being long distance.
"How was he?"
This was a question she was not prepared for. "Why? Does it matter?" she countered.
He was curious to know how it is possible for anyone of them to cheat when the sex was so amazing between them.
"He was nothing like you. No one can."
He gestured for her to move into bed with him. He lay his left arm out for her to nook in her favorite spot. He took her into his arms and gently kissed her forehead. She smell just the way he imagined her to be. It has been a long time since he ran his fingers in her long hair. He missed it so much. Yet he couldn't believe that she would do something like this to him. It almost seemed impossible from the intimacy and connection they shared there was room for infidelity.
As she snuggled into his nook, she suddenly remember how peaceful it felt to be there. Streams of tears gushed. Her weeping continued. He hushed her, cooing her gently, patting on her head softly. "Sshhh... Its ok. We are not saints and we make mistakes sometimes. I'm not saying this to make you feel better, but it is the truth. Like what you wanted me to know. The truth." He stroked her hair gently "Just remember i still love you, ok?" He lifted her chin up and kissed gently on her lips. The tenderness of his lips was killing her, made her more remorseful.
As his gentle touch calms her gradually, her weeping subside. She was almost slowly drifting into sleep when he said "But baby, i can't be next to you right now. I'm still confused over the fact that you chose to cheat on me over a random guy. I couldn't believe that you chose to stain the relationship over a guy you barely knew. I love you and i still do but i'm trying my best to search for an answer for me to believe you. Maybe i need some time alone, but i miss being away from you now. I don't wanna leave you now but i have to have some air."
She look up at his face. She understand this is what he need right now. "I'm so sorry, i dun mean to hurt you like this. Go if you have to, baby."
"I love you" He said.
For the first time, she saw tears in his eyes.