Ive Been Born Again!When I was about ten I experienced something no-one should ever have to go through I was raped by three much older teenage boys
At 10 you dont understand what has been done or why just all you no is shame fear and pain.somehow I managed to keep it to my self for 30years not even my parrents new but it was not the actual rape that did the harm but the long term damage caused by it.
I withdrew social ended up being bullied all through high school and well into my twenties untill I took up martial arts. Its was only when things came to a head over last couple of years that I realized and was diagnosed with serious clinical depression and started self harming and tryed to kill myself.
Im a lot better now ive had help to come to terms with what happend to me and stopped blaiming myself and im on medication which has gradually helped me be more stable.
Last year was when I hit as low as possible but now I feel I want to live I dont take things to serious anymore problem is im a different man to the one my wife married now doubt we will last I find myself allways looking for fun I now consider myself bi and open minded if someone offerd an affair I would take it cos I feel life is to short or am I being reckless?
chuzan 36-40, M 4 Responses 2 Feb 11, 2013