5th March 2010

Time passed on so quickly.  Been flying in out to see him since June 2009.. At times twice a month...

Last week was my last trip to AD... as his contract is finishing.  Where will be his next stop..we both aren't sure.

I miss him terribly when we parted at the airport. Tears were running down my cheeks and the hug was long.  He asked me not to cry.  We don't do tears he said.  I asked 'I won't be seeing you anymore right?'.  He said 'Yes'..meaning we will see each other once he is settled.  In my heart...I know we are both unsure what the future holds.....

I know soon .. there will be a mail...or in between our chats... he will end us'.  Long distance relationship is diffficult...

When I arrived home... I thought there will not be anymore text, mails or calls.  I was wrong.. He still write wondering why am I so quiet lately.  How can I tell him I am missing him very much.  The disagreement yesterday was bound to end 'us'...but again.... he called and he did his explanation which makes me at ease.  We ended with our usual I love yous before hanging up..

I still love him very much... what shall I do...

Eternal Eternal
31-35, F
Mar 4, 2010