Has It Really Come to This?

At what point did I decide to obsess over every ounce of food and liquid I take in and degrade myself continually for not having the "will power" to starve myself and run myself ragged?  Is this what it is to be a size 12 woman in America?  It seems no matter what my weight, I always want to be thinner.  Meanwhile, my waistline expands yearly.
daydreambeliever daydreambeliever
18-21, F
3 Responses Apr 21, 2007

you two are not alone.. meet obsessed #3 - Odd how that works. I never counted calories until I decided I didnt want to be overweight anymore. - I was approx 150 and I wanted to lose 20lbs. I have since then (about a year and a half to two years later) dropped to about 120. So I've lost 30lbs but still obsess over evertything I eat or drink or how many calories my activities are burning off. Yep, I'm there too.

you two are not alone.. meet obsessed #3 - Odd how that works. I never counted calories until I decided I didnt want to be overweight anymore. - I was approx 150 and I wanted to lose 20lbs. I have since then (about a year and a half to two years later) dropped to about 120. So I've lost 30lbs but still obsess over evertything I eat or drink or how many calories my activities are burning off. Yep, I'm there too.

Funny you should say that, I ask myself the same damn question everyday! I wear a size five sometimes 4 and weigh around 130 pounds. Yet I feel so fat. I try to count every calorie and then feel bad about eating. It sucks that we feel we need to be thin in order to fit in. I see all these girls who are smaller then me and wish to look like them. I wonder how they do it. Then I ask myself, "how did I get so out of control"? I was never this obsessed about my weight ever. I didn't start counting calories until I started going to the gym. It sucks because I am constantly thinking about food. I hate it. I wish there was a better way. And I wish I was more self- disciplined. So yeah, I feel you on this one.