Always On My Mind

I don't remember exactly when I started counting calories, but I can remember as early as this previous summer. As a 15-year-old girl, the recommended calorie intake is 2,100-2,200. I wanted to lose weight, so I took in 2,000-2,100 (always rounding up pretty dramatically, though), and I also exercised quite a bit. Sometime after the shool year school started, I cut my calorie intake to 1,300 (1,500 at the most). Sometimes I don't even get to 1,300. I still exercise, now more than I did before, because I still want to lose weight. People tell me it's obsessive. I disagree. It's more of a monitering than an obsession, really. I've been told to stop it, as well. It's not exactly something that I can turn on and off...it's always on my mind no matter where I am, no matter what I'm doing. I always have a tally in my head, and I go over what I eat everyday before I eat something new just to make sure I'm in check. Okay, maybe that screams "obsession". But if it makes me feel safe in the fact that I'm in control of my body, who cares, right?

vanillalattedream vanillalattedream
13-15, F
Feb 23, 2010