I Crave Change Like A Drug

I get restless when my life is too uninterrupted. I get what my friends have coined as "the itch to go." It scratches at my skin, chips away at my serenity and overwhelms my thoughts like a drug addiction. I fight it, distract myself with projects, stay stagnant until I feel I'm suffocating. Then, poof, one day everyone wakes up and I'm gone. What is wrong with me? Why can't I be happy and comforted by routine like everyone else?
Sahara007 Sahara007
26-30, F
1 Response Nov 28, 2012

Do you think maybe you have ADHD? I am a lot like you but only in certain ways I paint my house all the time or move furniture around ec. My research shows OCD or anxiety can cause this but with relationship sim in a LNG term one are u referring to a certain kind of change?

I'm positive I'm not ADHD. I studied for my LSAT in a bar and always see things through the finish. However, I can relate to anxiety. I'm an anxious person for sure, but I don't feel I can relate to OCD. Actually, I don't really feel the need to make superficial changes to my home and things like that. Mostly the change I'm referring to are major life changes. Career changes, relationship changes (sudden marriage and divorce included), moving practically overnight to a different state, taking off in the middle of the night on a several week hiatus with my dog (world famous for this one). I don't know exactly what I want my life to look like, but I'm sure I'm not there yet. Maybe all of the change is my way of experiencing new things in search of what I want. I have found a lot of things I know I want in my life through my changes...a loving husband, a tropical location, being an educator, community service. I'm making progress because the urges are farther apart, but it's not slow going for sure lol. Maybe it's related to my anxiety and need to improve everything. Maybe everyone else is just more easily contented...