Tom - Between what I thought and what I said

I told you I admire your talent, your energy, your genuineness and your warmth.

Could you hear all the other unspoken words bursting through the seams of my message?

I did not and could not tell you that my heart feels full and warm, and that its beat deafens me, when you’re around. I did not and could not tell you that your smile melts my bones, that your eyes make my hands shake and my legs weak. I did not and could not tell you that my fingers hurt with longing to touch your face, my arms, with longing to hold you. I did not and could not tell you that my heart and head are full of you, like a room fills with sunshine when the blinds are opened.

And I would love you, nurture you and protect you all the days of my life; only, you don’t need me to. You already have all you want and need with her, and that is good.

And that is why I did not, could not, could never tell you; no matter how much the words burn in my chest, no matter the pounding of my blood.
DancingFox DancingFox
31-35, F
Sep 10, 2012