Rough Time

I became a girl who cries every night and who cant keep up with her life anymore Im full of regrets as never before I need help...
The last 5 months of my life were such a terrible time that everytime I remember I start crying. A very good man, correct in every sense who never critized anyone, never lied, never complained, died under my responsibility,I mean, in my opinion... because I believe that if had spoken louder or insisted to the doctors to make things different I would have saved his life. Every day for about 3 months I saw my Dad suffering so much. I would cry every nigth begging for God's intervention but things only got worse. All the experiences that Ive gone through made me doubt about His existence and that is something that also kills me inside. I just cant deal with this I cant live with this pain inside me and the worst thing is that I dont accept that my daddy is gone... help me out please
MissSadness MissSadness
22-25
1 Response Dec 12, 2012

If you want someone to talk to about it, please message me. Your situation seems really similar in some ways to mine (I helped care for my grandpa who was more of a father to me than anyone else has ever been) and the time during his sickness and after losing him has been the worst time of my life. I'm here if you want someone to talk to.