I Don't Think I Am.

I admit I have played around with some of the sissy stuff I keep getting asked about from some of you, but I don't think I am a sissy or a bi cuckold. I have tried a few things my wife has wanted to see and try, but I have never wanted or asked to do these things! I guess if I don't explain what I have done I can't really defend my self can I.....? I don't tell these stories lightly due to I am very embarrassed from them so please don't judge. A while after our first child my wife, JD and I decided to try out a ********* only because we we're becoming more comfortable with each other, while doing this she started to go down on both of us at the same time and while doing so she started to rub our ***** together, now at the time I was very aroused mostly because I maybe got sex once a month and sometimes twice so I was already over the top! Now JD doesnt care either way, he seems to as open as my wife about most things so he didn't even bat an eye! As she was doing this she started to focus on him much more then me and started to not even focus on me at all. I started to feel left out and desperate so I tried to hint I was kind of left hanging! She just grabbed my hand and pulled me down and told me if I was feeling left out to come down and help her! I was shocked and a bit sick by the idea of what she ment, but she just grabbed his **** pulled it to my face and and pleaded with me to suck it and help her and JD. I REALLY did not want to suck JD's ****! So she started to kiss it and tell me to kiss her and just let his **** make it's way between our lips and take it slow, I wanted to make her happy and I knew in the back of my head if I didn't I would probably regret it so I started to kiss her unil I felt his **** pushed between our lips. Now I am sure some of you want to hear the details, but frankly you will have to be very convincing because this is not something I like to share! Long story short I gave him a blow job and they both loved it and have convinced me to do it more then a few times since, I really really hate to do it, but I guess you do crazy thing when you are in love! Now on top of giving him a blow job I have had sex with him more then I would have liked to and though it felt kind of good in a way, I don't enjoy doing it the amount they convince me too, I am not happy I have tried it, but it's hard to say no to those you love and I love them very much and it makes them happy! So sure I have done things those would consider bisexual, but I only do because I love them both and want them happy and I don't believe that makes me gay, bi, or a sissy? Correct me if I am wrong, but that's whats how I feel.