It's Hard

to stop cutting.  i did all types of self injury, went to the extent of burning myself with a lighter and i have the ugliest scars on my wrists. I hide it by wearing bracelets and wrist bands or long sleeve shirts. I started cutting about 3 years ago and haven't stopped since. the longest i've gone without cutting was 5 months. i just want to numb myself from my family problems. my so-called 'friends' who hate my guts. my parents who keep telling me i'm fat and ugly and say 'no wonder you dont have a boyfriend'. a brother who is diagnosed with depression and gets all the attention from my parents. its funnny how mom and dad have no idea that i do this to myself.

my way to cope nowadays: smoking weed and drinking until theres no energy left in me to move a finger. i guess its better than physically leaving scars behind.
liveitout liveitout
18-21, F
Aug 10, 2010