I have been cutting since sixth grade. I just can't seem to stop, theres not a night that I don't fall asleep craving to cut into my skin and feel the pain and realease of all my emotions. Nothing gives me the relief that cutting does. I've tried everything- running, writing, music, elastics, ice cubes, talking, meditation.. and so on. Nothing does it for me it just puts off the time a little longer until I do it and by that time my urge is worse which means my cuts are worse. I feel so trapped by this addiction. It's hard to try and keep from family and friends not that they really care. I can't remember what it even feels like to not need this. I feel anxious, overwhelmed, like I can't live with out it. I just want to escape from it all.