I Found A Part Of Me I Don't Like...

It was just few days ago that I started, but I have already cut myself over 20 times. The pressure of everything has gotten to me. Between all the drama at my house, cheer, and high school next year. I miss my ex extremely bad, and I don't know how to handle it other than to release it through cutting myself. The boy that likes me has a girlfriend and it's not that I don't like him. But my best friend seems to think that he likes her. He has a girlfriend who hates me already. He made feel okay, I guess, today. He said I looked "sexy" today. The last time a guy called me that he tried to takes things a little too fast. The boy that I'm talking about, let's call him "C" and my best friend "H". Last summer I told H how much I liked C. She seems to have forgotten that and flipped out when he moved to our school this year. I kinda lost how much I liked him at the beginning of the year until recently when he told me he still liked me. Everyday he gives me a hug and tells me he loves me and I can't tell my best friend because she likes him. That's why I cut I guess, but now WHERE do I cut? I cut my hips because that's the only place other people won't see...
ImInADarkPlaceAndImScared ImInADarkPlaceAndImScared
13-15, F
1 Response May 21, 2012

Hun, if you ever want to talk please message me! :)