They Were My Friends- Raped

i have known my two attackers for many years....
i thought they'd never do it to me...never hurt me so much i just wanna die....
why me i always say and then i start the facade again....
mum doesn't know but she is workin it out as i am avoiding certain people and want to stay from london...
school councillor will never know...social worker knows some of it if not all...
self harm to into it to stop....
when it started i though no not again and yh come get me as well!!!!
what is it with me that boys tgink they can just use me for their 'pleasures'!!!!
good stuff from pain..yh right
i m losing my mind...slipping thrugh the cracks...no trust is there just an empty shell.
me and my problems. childline. social srevices. the police. they all know but at the same time they don't know. i hate life and life hates me.
14 and problematic....14 and bi....14 and practically dead..two feet in the grave but body out.....well it feels that way
meandmyproblems meandmyproblems
13-15
Dec 6, 2012