Go Away!

those words,those two damn words hurt more than the cuts,the hours of time on here,writing,singing and screaming.

they hurt more than the pain of my "friends" being here for me,but i know they could do without me...i know they think im annoying,emo,cutter,wierd and not cool,not nearly as cool as the friends I,the "cutter,emo,annoying" kid introduced them to...

it wouldn't have hurt as much if they didn't come out of my family's mouth.my own brother and father...

i never,and i mean NEVER do anything right in their eyes,all i do is mess up.if only they knew that when they do **** like that,it makes me cut more,deeper.

they hurt more than the pain of me knowing that im a young,stupid kid that "is an idiot" for trying to enter into a music scene that won't accept me...that was my sister there....

i really feel like no one cares,my mind is so tired that i have pretty much given up on thinking about a lot of things i need to think about...like my new song,my crush,ah **** i give up.

sometimes i wonder how people would feel if i just ran,ran away from them,or just gave up,ended my life...i wonder how they would feel...
dreambigwh11 dreambigwh11
13-15, M
Dec 10, 2012