Again...

I cut myself...again. Today. I swear to myself that I won't repeat it, but even as I'm thinking it, I know that I'm lying to myself. I always end up doing it, again and again. It's like a damn cycle, never ending. It might seem really weird, but who ever said I wasn't.
I broke a razor blade and got only a single tiny sharp bar from it, wrapped tape around one end, and use it as a makeshift knife...it really does work.
I went deep today, too deep. I can actually see a little flesh through the cut. It served as a reminder, that my f***ing pain is controlled by me and only me.
Alykz20 Alykz20
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 8, 2013

My dear...find help, please? XxxW