Idk why...but I enjoy hurting myself. Something about it just feels...bad, but in a good way. Idk it's hard to explain. I have cut myself a few times, I have beaten myself with what ever objects I can find. My most popular items are sticks outside and shampoo bottles in the shower. No one is ever with me when I go on a walk in the woods or showering anyway. When I get an accidental cut or something I tend to try to keep it there for as long as I can. Like if I get a cut I re-open it every night with tweezers or my finger nails. And it may be gross, but the taste of my own blood tastes...amazing. I love it. 1 reason why I am convinced I am a vampire. (lol) But here is what makes it hard. Cutting myself, honestly, hurts like hell. It takes a lot for me to do that because it hurts so much. Normally I will just scratch at my arm until I have a spot that bleeds because it doesn't hurt as much. Idk. The whole self abusing thing is just...part of who I am. I don't see it ever changing and I have excepted that. Idc what others think. It feels good and I am doing no harm to anyone. Only myself. And that's how it's going to be...I'm going to continue this as long as necessary. No one will stop me.
Yours Truly, TrappedAbs
TrappedAbs TrappedAbs
22-25, F
Jan 10, 2013