I Really Want To Get Better...i Just Need To.

I started cutting myself when I was 13. I'm 21 now.
At that time I thought It would pass as fast as it came. But 8 years later, here I am.
I really wish to know how to stop it. Is not working for me now.
Sometimes I say to myself "You won't do it anymore", and I stay strong for a few days, but then I just...can't help it. I feel like I'm a big failure.
I don't even know what else to say, the only thing I keep in mind is: PLEASE HELP ME.
If you, whoever you are, are reading this...believe me. You're helping me and I appreciate it. Because I don't have anywhere to go or anyone to talk about this.
Chuleta Chuleta
18-21, F
3 Responses Jan 15, 2013

Thank you so much. It mean a lot to me. Make me want to keep fighting

I know I might not be good help since I still cut too, I'm here if u need someone.

My daughter used to cut herself at the age of 14 for about a year. At the time she was depressed but I was too and didnt see the signs. She told her counselor at school who then contacted me and the three of us sat down and talked. I saw that she got help ASAP. She is 17 now. She sees a counselor twice a month or more if she needs it and a pshchologist monthly for depression med. I also had her psychologically tested and the results came back that she has ADD so she is on meds for that she doesn't cut herself anymore. I believe she cut herself because her pain was so deep inside that it wouldn't come out on its own. Cutting was her way to feel pain. I don't know if this is true because when I asked her why she said I don't know. I used to fight inner pain with alcohol. People do different things to feel pain. Please try and get help. And stay with EP as there are thousands of people young and old who feel your pain.