I woke up today and the day automatically started so bad, with work related stuff. And as the day progressed it just got worse. I'm someone who might be a mess in all aspects of my life but not in my career. And today I came to the realization that I'm a mess all over. And I'm so freaking sad & I feel like I can't fix it and I'm having urges to cut because I'm in a lot of pain. Inside it hurts. And I want to stop crying and I feel like I've totally lost all control. And cutting always always centers me. So please I hope the universe forgives me but I have to cut. It makes the pain more physical and less internal.
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1 Response Aug 20, 2014

There's nothing objectively wrong with cutting if it's sterile. I guess it's healthier than drinking your problems away