I Cut For The First Time.

Ive battled depression the last 3 years, ive been on and off medication, ive be honestly fine until the other night. The other night i cut for the first time. I cut my left wrist in two places. I used a razor blade that i had taken out of a razor and i sliced my wrist in the shower. It didnt hurt all that much, so the next night while i was taking a shower, i did it again. I cut the exact same places but only this time a little harder. I dont know why i cut that very first night. Maybe i was looking for an escape, i dont know. But ever since that first night a couple of days ago, all i can think about is when ill be able to cut again. I never knew why people cut, i honestly didnt get it at all, but when i cut for the first time. I understood. I dont know if i want to stop or not, but i cant help but think about cutting. Even as i sit here now its all i think about. Im trying to cope with life the best i can, and even though i never thought i would turn to cutting but... I have. And i dont know if i can stop
lucyshines lucyshines
18-21
6 Responses Apr 26, 2011

I cut for the first time last night, I have no reason to be depressed, I don't know I guess I was just trying it and I liked it for I went crazy and cut all up my wrists and legs and know I don't know how to hide them...

Same here

I can't really remember my first time, but the only thing I can say, just keep it with that few times. I've been doing this since I was 11 years old, and I'm 17 now, still can't really say I'm off it. Though the last time I did it was atleast 3 months ago, it's only since a week or two I haven't been thinking of it for every single day. Just images flashing through my head all day about how I could mutilate my arms.. Just don't give in. It has happened to me quite some times before that I thought I was off, but after a few months I always gave in again..<br />
Cutting can be a way to deal with a depression, on really short term, but eventually it'll make it worse, believe me. Please don't go on with it, else it could hunt you all your life .. :(

Stop while your ahead. I first cut in 6th grade, i'm now in 12th grade about to graduate high school. Finally stopped cutting last month. Took along time to stop it but I was finally able to do it. It's hard. Trust me stop cutting before its to late. I can't wear shorts nor can I go anywhere without people asking me why my arms are so messed up. It sucks. I thought cutting helped, It dosen't, It does at the time, but it will come around and bite you in the ***. I regret ever taking a razor to my body. Stop while your ahead. YOU CAN DO IT. I believe in you. :D

You can stop, im 16 years old and i cut for about a year, im at almost at 10 month mark for not doing it. It took ALOT of will power but you find that its not worth it. I know that it might seem like you can stop rite now but life is rite there waiting for you to live it. I believe in you :)

You can stop, im 16 years old and i cut for about a year, im at almost at 10 month mark for not doing it. It took ALOT of will power but you find that its not worth it. I know that it might seem like you can stop rite now but life is rite there waiting for you to live it. I believe in you :)