My Story....

I cut because I feel like no cares and i dont deserve them to i feel worthless and a dissapointment. My mum just broke up with my step father (who has always treated me like i was worthless and the lowest of the low since i was 2 yrs old) but now she is always yelling at me like it my fault and how im being selfish and should be stronger for my 5 younger brothers (who are under13) and i try but i have be for yrs and i feel like i am being crushed under the weight of everything... it is my fault tho my parents always fought over me because he was so horrid to me and mum would. but know i just feel like everyone is blaming me for the seperation and i know it is my fault and i feel like i have no one to talk to and no really understands how much i feel like im being torn apart by everyone and thier problems i feel like im being strangled and just dont see the point.I cut to make the emotions and the the hoplessness go away and it takes my mind off everything for a while i have never told ppl how i feel because i have trust issues cause im always being turned on so i just cant tell anybody i have never been told i have depression but have all the signs to it but i hate theopists whats the point of them anyway) im very good at hiding my feelings but latly (2-3 months) i just havent had the strength to hide it in just feel trapped....
DarkGal17 DarkGal17
18-21, F
May 11, 2012