I Have to Stop Or I'm Gonna Lose the Most Important Person In My Life

I started cutting when I was 14, and it just got worse and worse as I got older.  I've been with the most amazing guy for almost a year, and he's done nothing but support me through it all.  He's always trying to get me to stop, and I make promises to him that I will, that I later break, and am disgusted with myself about. 

I can see how hard this is for him, especially because I cut sometimes because of him.  Because I feel like I'm not good enough, or I'm a bad girlfriend, or if we get in a fight.  He says he loves me and always will, but if the best thing for me is for him to be out of my life, he will do that.  He feels like it's his fault.  And it's not, I just can't stop myself.  I'll cut for no reason sometimes and I don't understand it. 

I need to stop, or I'm gonna lose the only person in this world I love, and I know that I wouldn't be able to live anymore if that happened.  There's no point.  I need help, and I'm so confused and scared.

liv4you liv4you
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 19, 2009

If you feel like u can't talked to ur parents or friends then talked to someone who has the same experience that ur going through. Try it once u get help u and ur boyfriend can be very happy together, u can do this.

message me anytime if u ever need to talk

get help...worry less about your boyfriend....you may think your in love now but later? My aunt nearly killed herself and it started with self-mutilation. I love my Aunt an i am sure someone loves you (besides the BF) Trust me...when you are young you can not see or understand your future...things will change...they will not be for the better until you resolve your own issues..on your own. Don't stop for your BF do it for yourself!