Today...

I was getting screamed at for hours, for no particular reason just I live in a house where everyone screams. And suddenly, I lost control, I couldn't stop crying. My mother screamed more saying how pathetic I was for crying over her wanting me to do something little, but really thats not what the tears were about. I cried because every day, I slowly and slowly begin to remember more about my sexually abused childhood - the abuser being my father who I still live with - and I cut. So today, I cut myself a lot to stop feeling the emotional pain. It's a lot easier to numb your mind with the endorphins that are released then feel your heart breaking and your life as you know it fall apart.
OneFalseHope15 OneFalseHope15
18-21, F
2 Responses Aug 9, 2010

Your like me screaming for hours mental and psychical abuse it is easier to cut cause for me it made me feel better inside than what I felt I just don't know how long I can take it

Your like me screaming for hours mental and psychical abuse it is easier to cut cause for me it made me feel better inside than what I felt I just don't know how long I can take it