Its Like Smoking A Cigarette..

Drag of the knife, razor blade, etc, drag of a cigarette...neither is good for you, but it relieves whatever is bothering you at the moment. I didnt say all of that to my friend, but I did explain to him why I cut on myself and it was like smoking a cigarette: temporary relief. He like my other friends and my mom told me not to do it again, but I cant promise them anything. If anything will stop me from doing so is the fear of going back to psych ward like the last time I harmed myself...but even then...things suck hard right now and the holidays are here which make things suck more. So far, I've been a good sport (somewhat) for everyone's sake but I just dont know when something bad might put me over the edge and drive me to cut. Like I said, I've been behaving for everyone else's sake despite no one seems to want to help. Hm, thats loved ones for you...
Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum
36-40, F
Nov 27, 2012