If there was one BIG word that explained how I feel right now, and it would be STUPID. that is how I feel, stupid, stupid that I couldn't deal with the pain, stupid that I couldn't beat the urge, stupid that I threw away, over 80 days of not cutting. I had 11 more days to go, to reach my goal, and tonight, it all went out the ******* window, and I feel so damn Stupid. I wish I had reached out, but I didn't want people kicking me down again, like they did last time it got this bad, so I tried to deal with it on my own, and it goes to show, that I was not strong enough....

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1 Response Jul 13, 2010

Tell me you are not serious when you say someone put you down? These people are not worthy of your friendship. How dare someone do that to another person. <br />
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You are not stupid. I have read several of your posts and you are such a beautiful person. <br />
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Just start again. Rather then put yourself down, praise yourself for your accomplishment. Be proud of your success. Don't be discouraged. You are not a failure just because you slipped once. You are a strong and courageous lady. Please focus on what you have done instead of not done. <br />
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Start again. You still have the 80 days in, all you need to say is, I only did it once in 80 days but now I'm back on track. . That's quite an amazing defeat. You deserve to be congradulated. So let me be the first to say, congradulations. Have a nice week. <br />
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P.S. If you ever need to talk or need someone to vent, email me.