Softly Dripping, Drop By Drop

The cuts burn so bad tonight...... I ruin this already ugly body. It works so much better in a hot bath - the water turned red. Still, it isn't even enough to make me feel weak - god, I am so WEAK! Why can't I just cut deeper.... end this charade? Shut this machine off? I am ashamed of what I have become, making the outside as ugly as the in. I had gone for a while without my razor.... but there is no reason anymore to hold back.... I deserve pain, I am pain! Would those who "know" me pass on to whatever (if anything) is next.... then I could finally be alone, just me and the blade.... punishment forever - for what I am. Please lord, leave me alone!
menschfeind menschfeind
3 Responses Jul 13, 2010

p.s. thanks for your words btw

I just found your cutting story jfakldf8.... I will reply to your comment there.

This saddens me, cutting in my opinion is to help not to punish. NO ONE deserves a punsihment as sever as you give yourself. <br />
<br />
Just remember that.