I Wish That I Could Tell Someone

My friends joke about the scars on my wrist. Its a running joke: "Did you do that to yourself?" Today as one friend made that joke and I looked at the second, trying to communicate somehow that this was real. She said that they had always been suspicious, but that of course it was nothing. Just an oddly placed cut. And I joined in on the joking. What else is there to do?

I've told two people. One got very angry at me, saying that she thought that I was smarter than that. The other cried. I wish that I could talk to them about it, but I cannot.

I am in so much pain.

I do not cut very often. Haven't for a week or so. But the pain is still there. And the scars.

I wish that I could show someone my scars and just have them say that they love me.
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2 Responses Jul 29, 2010

i am a cutter to,i do not want to kill myself i just want to cut.in all it makes me feel better to let go of the pain i feel inside

i just started to cut and it helps me and i'm not going to stop, but in your case, pls get help and there are ppl out there to help and there are ppl who love you.