It's Been Almost A Year..

It has been about a year since I have cut myself but not a day goes by when i don't think i about it. I'm proud that i was able to stop. But I also miss it. I still feel just as lost, hurt, angry, sad, and whatever. Everyday i fight a battle with myself to not do it. I miss the feeling of letting go that it gave me.

The adrenaline. The power. The relief. I want it back.

I cut for almost 9 years.

I am covered in scars and probably ruined any chance of ever pursuing the career i wanted to pursue. I knew it at the time but somehow it didnt matter. I just needed the feeling.

Like i need it right now...