My Cutting Has Been Very Bad Lately

I'm 40-and cutting has really been an issue since I was a teenager-but now it dominates my thoughts. I've been in the ER twice in the past 2 years for staples and stitches. I feel really alone and would like to find others who experience what I'm going through-because God knows those around me(those who know about it) don't get it.

There is a rush associated with it-and it relieves what I"m feeling. Sometimes I do it because I'm so numb, I want to feel and be in control of what I"m feeling.
lagirl39 lagirl39
36-40, F
2 Responses Sep 18, 2012

Thank you so much for your response :) It means alot just to know someone cares. And I'm really happy to say that last night is the first time I DIDN'T cut in like 14 days.... it feels good to not be in pain today from hurting myself...

Thank you for your kind words :)

Hugs

Hi, I understand where you're coming from when you say that people don't get it. I know it's horrid to feel alone with self harm. You don't have to be alone though, if you need someone to talk to feel free to message me. I may only be able to listen but sometimes it helps to just talk about stuff. If you don't want to talk about it then that's fine too of course. You seem to be in a lot of pain and that makes me sad. I hate to see someone in pain.