First Time Nd Now I Know About "Addiction"

my group of friends consists of mostly "emo" kids and a few "normal" kids, and my best friend killed himself a few days ago.. we all loved him and are really grieving.. but especially.

iv been crying alot and the only reason i didnt cut yet was cuz i was to lazy and numb to look for a razor..
today tho.. i was talking to my sister and i dont even rememeber why.. but my dad got angery and punched me in the ribs... i yelled.. and he just told me that it hadnt hurt me..
but it did
and so i went into my room tonight,... in a rage of anger and sadness and loneliness and i tore apart a shaving razor to get to the blade...
i cut my self twice... and i cant help my self.. i hav to do it agai....
but i dont want to because i am ashamed and i dont want any one to know...
its horrible...
emogirlnattie emogirlnattie
18-21, F
Jul 22, 2007