Hi...I have long history with my big time ex for about 5 years and still going on because we are working together...

Here is my story in short before I need advises and comments from you guys...

I met my ex 5 years ago. We started work projects together...was through thick and thin time together because it was start up...

He fall for me first...I didn't...But we kept flirt around without any physical connection. (Some kind of on-off relationship and we called each other "EX")

3 years after, we took decision to have physical connection and spent days together...everything was GREAT..all emotion ...all what we talked about commitment which I didn't feel before...came bang to my head...
I asked myself..."What have I done for not listen and fall for him"?
And everything I experienced in those moments hit me badly

But by that time, he was dating with his new girlfriend and planned to marry her. (Because I never commit to him before)

Later on, we both know we missed out BIG TIME.
He arranged to discuss this with his girlfriend..
The result is hid girlfriend accepted that it is impossible for him to attract to only her in his life time.
So, she accepted me too!!

Things went emotionally daily...He started to focus more on work because he managed me to be in the relationship already... I worked with him and I got all work pressure..and no time to have emotional support..

He told me everything about commitment...love...Etc...but he hardly had time to show it often...only work pressure which I understood later why...because it was start up.

One good day, we had big fight and by woman emotionally, I said "Break up" first without purpose..which he hated the most...

He suddenly was mean and cold to me...and it hurt me badly as I "FALL" for him already..

He said he was over it and would never have physical connection with me again...

I had been cried for like 6 months...

But now, we spent time together again for like 2 weeks...all emotion of both exploded to each other...his body languages were right...(In/out of bed)

But then, he said he needed "Space" as our works are all coming up...
He said he does have feeling, we will always talk...
He said "If it would happen, it would happen..and we are back together on "SLOW development..so don't push me...you will scare me away"

He said it was not only sex...he does have feeling...
And we tried to adjust emotion not to be drama...
Things went well...till now...

I have read a lot of blogs..in the similar situation..
They said the man still has feeling and miss me...but his focus is not only on me as before as there are many things in his head. He may have full focus on me again when his time is right...and he even agreed so..

What do you guys think?
LongtimeEx LongtimeEx
36-40, F
Aug 16, 2014