I'm Always Forgotten

Im surprised I haven't killed myself yet. I mean I am always pushed to the side, forgotten, ignored and was always told who was better than me. Nobody ever talks to me. I don't know why but I guess people don't like me. I was always the kind, gentle, sweet, shy, caring kind of girl. Whenever I give out any ideas I am always told that it was a stupid idea and I shouldn't have ever been born. I guess other people are right about me not being born. I don't know why but I have a feeling that when I'm gone nobody will even care let alone notice my absence. I feel like I don't have a place in this world. My mom always tells me that I should never been born and that I'm a fat useless ball. I know she never loved me even though I've gotten the better grades than my sister. I don't know what to do. Should I kill myself or live on with this misery until death comes knocking at my door?
Moondog55 Moondog55
13-15, F
Sep 10, 2012