Diagnosed With B. D. But Were They Wrong?

I was diagnosed by two doctors (one a psychologist and one a psychiatrist) as having Bipolar Disorder type 2. However I wonder if I was misdiagnosed. I was told this a couple of years back and was given medication for it but I only took it for a few months and then got sick of taking them since they didn't work. I feel like when my mind is occupied (a.k.a. when I am taking a full college load and don't have time to do anything else but be busy) I feel more stable. I do not see how they could diagnose me with that. I mostly feel anxiety during those long semesters. However I would rather have anxiety then what I feel now that I am on summer break and not in school.

I guess in a strange way I use college and the work I do as a crutch to what is really there. Now that I am off (and doing anything I can to just stay busy) I have days where I feel happy constantly, these usually last for a few days straight. However for the last week or so that mood has been cracking (no matter how hard I try to stay "up there") and I have days where I feel calm and collected and don't mind going out. Then I have days like today where I am extremely reclusive. I do not want to answer my phone, I do not want to leave my room or really give a crap about anyone else. I just want to be left alone with my mind wandering.

Yesterday was one of my "good" days but basically Friday through Monday I didn't leave my house or attempt to speak to anyone. It was a strange feeling of having no motivation, feeling down and just this knot in the middle of my chest. On Monday night when I was finally forced to get out of my room it took a large amount of energy to even put on clothes and go anywhere. I also forgot to mention the large bouts of insomnia. Sometimes I won't go to sleep until 4 or 5 am and wake up at 3 pm and other days I won't be able to go to sleep until the same time but wake up at 9 am. My body and my emotions just feel really out of whack right now.

Could all of this really mean bipolar disorder or could this be something else?
smartandbeautiful3 smartandbeautiful3
18-21, F
1 Response May 23, 2012

It's 4am right now and I too am wide awake. I wish there was a way to test people for bipolar, other than clinically of course. It would give those of us who have been diagnosed some peace of mind. I don't want to take medication for something I may not have. Have you tried answering the diagnostic questions on your own?