Damn

thanks katja for your insight, but I do regret not doing enough, or not doing things differently, and the worst part is there is nothing I can do about it now, no second chance, no opportunity. It's like a game in which I had one life but I lost it, and it will be years and years to pick up the pieces. But all I can do is try to do my best, and the hardest part is forgiving myself for my mistakes.

Life is to be lived, just as lessons are to be learned. You grow with each success and failure it is a part of life. I see your age range I think maybe you might need to look at your perspective. It is not healthy to have so many regrets. I am 30 and just experienced my first, with great hope that it will be my last. There is no expectation to be perfect other than the expectation that you put on yourself. I don't know what you did and have done, but the word regret is as strong as the word hate, so maybe you might want to think more deeply. You probably just made a mistake. We spend our youth trying things on to see if they fit, trying to learn who we are by hurting as few people as possible. I hope you feel better, try not to be so hard on yourself and always try to be the best person you can be as often as possible.