Online And Long Distance Relationship
I don't believe in online relationships. I don't think they are real. Its so easy to get caught up in one. A year ago I read this wonderful poem. I wrote the author telling him that his poem moved me. We started to chat. I had my guard down as I didnt think this guy was a threat. A friendship began and before you know it I was being sent all these beautiful poems that he wrote about me and some about us. Thinking all that was going on was too good to be true, I drove in my car to meet him in person. I figured that we would meet and have a great time and then everything would bowl over. Well the joke was on me. As soon as he touched my hand to help me out of my car, he felt like home. Being with him felt so natural and effortless. I left feeling more madly in love. Even the onslaught of panic attacks I endured over discovering that I had it bad for this guy couldn't snap me out of it. So the next month I travel to see him again. Made it even worse as every time I see those pools of green of his I get weak in the knees. He has a way of making my head spin with the things he says to me. He's the first man who has truly loves me unconditionally and hasn't looked at my shortcomings as weaknesses. He had accepted them and helps me work through it. I knew the reality of this relationship from the beginning. He can't move and neither can I. Life and finances get in the way so we can't visit each other often. His kids want to see their Dad sharing his life with someone who can be there for him. So they don't approve of our situation. He's torn to the point that he cant seem to make plans to see me. Without a doubt he says he loves me and wants to work things out. For me I'm done. I waNt to live in real life not make believe. I have cried a river over this as I truly love this man. It all boils down to this. If he really wants to be with me, he would help me move heaven and earth to try to steal as much time we can together in reality and not over the phone. We both deserve better. He has become one of my best friends so I am trying my damnest to keep our friendship in tact. To be perfectly honest, I want to scream and shake him!!