Never Say NeverI did something that I said I would never do. . . get married again and on top of that, have children.
What was I thinking?!?!
Life was fine. Really it was. I enjoyed being single. I was stupid enough to get married which I knew was a bad idea and when it didn't work out it took forever to get out of it.
I knew I did not want that again.
I equated marriage and divorce as drinking really bad booze for years and then throwing it up for however long it takes to get out of the marriage.
When the divorce decree finally arrives, you are still shaking from all of the throwing up. Your system is a wreck (and sometimes your finances are too. Divorce isn't cheap). I suppose the cost of divorce can equal the cost of the wedding. Yikes.
Anyway, I struggled for a while and wasn't too happy about that but things finally worked themselves out.
I dated but really wasn't interested in anybody.
Then all of a sudden out of the blue this wonderful man came into my life. Dropped in from Heaven and perfect for me.
I stood my ground because I wasn't about to go through the hell of marriage, divorce and, oh my, why would I want to have children?
Time does change things and after a very long time I decided to marry the wonderful man and even surprised myself with having children.
Wife and mother were words I never thought I would ever use to describe myself. I have always been me, doctor, artist, adventurer.
I'm still me but now I'm a doctor, artist, adventurer who is also a wife and mother.
I wouldn't have it any other way.
WildSpectrumArts 46-50, F 1 Response 2 Aug 19, 2012