This is my cry for help. I'm weak

So I'm not a drinker at all and I've always been more of an 'indoor girl' but recently I went out with some friends when I went to visit my grandmas house and I stupidly gave into peer pressure and got very very drunk. I remember this boy trying to get cosy with me (he kept hugging me and kissing my cheek) and I went to the bathroom because I felt sick and he followed me then he strted hugging me and making out with me and I just remember thinking "what happening" I feel sick " then he put his hand down my pants and fingered me. That felt disgusting to write, I've never been that far with a guy and the next day I felt so violated and disgusting and just like such a slutty person. I can't stop thinking about it and I just wish I had more common sense. He's the son of a good family friend and this whole situation is embarrassing and killing me. I haven't been eating properly since it happened. I keep crying and thinking about it. I don't know what to do :''( i've told my mum about what happened and she has helped me, saying it's a typical teenage drunken mistake that should not have happened. in happy i have her.I've been listening to lots of music and I wrote a poem which I might share on here to see what you think. I'd love some advice please, I just need to know that someone somewhere bothered to read this and might understand what I'm feeling right now :'(
Crazystupidteenager Crazystupidteenager
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 12, 2013

You were sexually assaulted. I don't know how you can prove it. I am so sorry.