I went to a party with friends, I hadn't intended to overdo it, I only brought a single bottle of wine, but one thing led to another and I ended up drinking way too much.
The night wore on and I woke up at home and It was a blackout night. Only thing is I felt a massive sense of dread all day, it kept getting worse and worse. Soon I found myself bursting into tears randomly. I tried to go to bed and get some sleep but I kept waking up and crying.
I finally got ahold of one of the friends I was at the party with and I told her what I was going through and I begged her to tell me what happened at the party.
What happened was, that in total earshot of this friend, A woman who I consider a great friend, someone who I think of as an older smarter sister, I said in reference to her "I would wreck that chick" And she told me that she was dissapointed and hurt that I would say something so rude about her. Even worse, she has been dating my best friend for nearly 10 years now.
I am sick with regret about this. I cant beleive I would say something like this about her, because I honestly love her dearly - as a friend. Now I feel like I betrayed that friendship and I truly feel that I have damaged a relationship that is very special to me.
She told me to forget about it and that it was OK, but even now the sorrow I feel is almost unbearable.