'Acting Out' -disturbed Behaviour
When I was a child my behaviour ranged from being like a statue, to being very violent and attention-seeking. I had some very strange ideas to do with sex. It still surprises me that so little was done to correct this, by teachers/social workers/psychologists. They seemed only interested in blaming and punishing me.
My Attention Seeking Behaviour: I started do things that drew attention to me and the bizarre life I wanted out of. I did not even realise what I was doing i just did really odd stuff for a little kid. I was often cruel. I was pretty convinced by the age of eleven, that I was completely crazy.
I had bizarre daydreams from at least as young as seven, which would be about not just escape, but also really odd cruel things. Because I had no understanding of what was being done to me I had the idea that it was just my pain that other people were enjoying. Most of the time it was just my pain that people were enjoying. The bullies at school, the teachers at school, they just wanted to see me suffer. My father just wanted to make me suffer. All I could see was their motives was enjoyment of cruelty, and so I used to escape to those places, and imagine doing terrible cruel things to other people, to make my own reality go away..
This led to some very disturbed behaviour just 'happening for no reason'. Stuff just popped out of my brain into my actual behaviour. I was only a child though so how could I have known any better? I was born innocent like everyone else. I was not mad or bad. I was a normal child responding predictably to an abnormal environment.
There has been talk in the UK about dropping the legal age of 'criminal consent' to EIGHT. That means eight-year-olds would be held accountable for crimes. I do not agree with this, a child who exhibits disturbed behaviour needs to be treated with some sympathy not punished as a criminal, made to identify themselves as a criminal and made to feel guilty. IMHO.