For My Mother...

Mom, I am sorry I couldn't be there with you when you passed.  Even in your state of advanced Alzheimers, you always recognized me, and my voice, even in your last moments.  I have felt guilty inside for all these years; i took a job tht we desperately needed, out of state and away from you, when you were in your last days.   I know that if you have been able, you would have said "It's alright, go, care for your family, as I cared for mine over the years."  and that is how I rationalized it for a long time...but I miss you Mom.  I wish I had been there to hold your hand, smooth you hair, and kiss you goodbye. But i wasn't, and I regret that now.  

There has been so much go on in my life i wish i could share with you...both good and bad.  I have longed for you sweet support, and your quiet, laid-back wit.  Rest in Peace, Mom...I love you. 

headstrongheart headstrongheart
56-60, M
1 Response Mar 8, 2010

I'm so sorry, baby..I am a mother, and I believe she would be proud of the kind , generous man you are....<br />
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I sooo love you , sweetheart!!!