I Miss Him So Much It Hurts.
I am really losing faith in my current situation with my husband in Iraq. The other night I just started crying uncontrollably and went into the closet grabbed all his clothes and just lost it in a hug of shirts and sweaters. I never realized just how hard this all was going to be. Missing him, taking care of my son by myself, no down time and time for just me. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do and I am just so lost. I have been questioning if I want to stay married and go through this ...but then I remember a divorce will just hurt worse and either way I am still without him. I have different thoughts by the minute of how to get by and cope and it seems like everyday its harder and harder to just get out of bed and live like everything is fine. I have not gotten a phone call in 3 weeks and an email in 6 days, both very weird..I was talking to him once a week and emails were coming in about every other day. *sigh*