If I Say I Don't...i Am Lying

I pulled thru the 4th day now..  A little proud of myself but same time I had to admit.. I still miss him.  Miss hearing his voice ...seeing him smile on skype... looking at those blue eyes... and definitely I miss his hugs and butterfly kisses very much.

I have never in my life miss someone so terribly....  and what more when both of us had done so much together. What makes them so special is because most of it are our 'First experience'... 

I love him very much and I believe he will always have a special place in my heart...no matter where I will be.

Eternal Eternal
31-35, F
1 Response Mar 8, 2010

What you wrote here reminds me of something he said to me before. "Not a million years will I ever expect you to be mine completely." Maybe he knew he cant love me any better...and I know he will never stop me if I want to leave one day... Dont' think he will ever be sad or anything near ..<br />
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As for the rough days... Well... for what I see.. he is still good looking and really fit.. wealthy... and women are everywhere. He can pick anyone when I am gone... maybe it would be a better calling for him too.<br />
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Only thing I know is ... No woman will ever love him as much as I do...neither anyone will love him for 'nothing in return. It is a material world out there... Nobody will be as stupid as me to love and stay loyal for so long.<br />
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Thank you for having confident in me.. my 5th day now. As much as I wanted to cry... I would like to gain my bubbly self back.