Getting Over My Regret

I have been with my boyfriend for over a year now and I wasn't ready to loose my virginity but it happened. Even though I tried to tell myself I was ready and that everything was fine, I regretted not waiting because my virginity was special to me. It wasn't that I didn't want him to have it but more that I wasn't really ready for all the emotions that came along with it. My boyfriend and I have spent quite some time talking about the situation and I am beginning to get over my feelings of guilt and regret but I still wish we would have waited until we were married so everything could have been perfect like we wanted it to be.
AdorableCaterpillar AdorableCaterpillar
18-21, F
2 Responses May 12, 2012

I lost my virginity at 14 on a picnic table....with someone that I probably wouldn't have but because of the peer pressure and perhaps the alcohol, for whatever reasons I did. Now that over 10 years have passed, and I've been in 2 very serious relationships, the last being to my now fiance, my virginity hardly seems important. As dumb as that might sound to some, it just seems so far in the past, that it hardly matters. What does matter, is that the guy I am with now loves me, and I love him. So don't regret your decision, because one day that's all it will be to you, is a decision you made. It won't even be the importance of losing your virginity anymore. Be glad it's over, and go ahead with the future, keeping in mind that most decisions you make today don't always have an huge effect on your future.

wow! I understand exactly what you mean. My boyfriend that i'm with now is my second, and i love him with all of my heart but i wish we would've waited, too. I wish I never even lost it, i was never really ready to kiss my virginity goodbye.

Now that it's happened and I've gotten the all the negative emotions off my chest, I've been able to let it go. Even though I was regretful for quite a while, I don't really see the point in becoming a "born again virgin".