I Didn't Wait...and I'm Not Sorry!

I was 14 years old and in high school, grade 10. Brian was 16 years old and in grade 12. I actually worked with him at a restaurant before I started into the same high school he was already attending and I had the biggest crush on him from day one! I was thrilled that he noticed and flirted with me but was jealous too because he also flirted with Michelle, another girl at work who I thought was cuter and much more outoging than I was. It wasn't until the first dance at high school when I was waiting for another guy who had asked me to the dance, at the edge of the dance floor unsure if he was even going to show up, that Brian approached me and asked me to dance. I was thrilled! We clicked right from the first second we wrapped our arms around each other and started moving to the music. From that night on, we were a couple and you never saw one of us without the other. We become close fast and we knew we would be together forever. Then finally, one night when we were alone at his house, down in the basement family room, that we were laying on the couch, kissing and cuddling as we often did, but this time neither of us pulled away or stopped. Soon we were both undressed and more aroused than we had ever been and it was just like we both knew that we both wanted to keep going, to share both our first times together. We had already expressed our feelings of love to each other, we had often touched and fondled each other but this was our first time together, totally naked and both ready for the next step in our relationship. Together we fumbled and showed one another and eventually found our way to making love. Of course, once he was inside me, after so much time and being so excited, he didn't last long but it was long enough to confirm the loss of my virginity. For me, there was no pain though no real big thrill and certainly no ******, but the fact that I just confirmed my love to the only guy I had ever loved was enough for me. He came and then he pulled me down on him and held me for a long time. He asked me if I was okay and after I told him I was, I remember he sighed and whispered that he loved me. We layed there together like that for a long time and then got dressed together stopping for kisses each time our eyes met. I don't remember anything else about that night but we spent three wonderful years together...he was my highschool sweetheart and I never once regretted giving him my virginity or sharing my first time with him. Even today, when I look back, I look back fondly on my time spent with Brian and can still feel the love I felt that night.
Sellry Sellry
46-50, F
11 Responses Oct 5, 2012

First love is often the one we remember as the "best" love. Thanks for sharing your memory...

You write from the heart. I love it. I could feel the love you still have for him. It may not have been spectacular sex, but the giving and receiving of first love is so special. Thank you. X

Thanks Celine....yes, he will always hold a special place in my heart, he was afterall my first and my high school sweetheart! Spectacular? Not even close! But all in all, everything considered, probably up on my top 10 because of how he was with me.

I believe you are 17 now ? he is 19 ? girl , this is just so wrong =_= , wait till he reach 20 and dumb u , then u look back to these days with regret ... idk what to say , you are too young and rushing things ..

give me a break we were 12 and never forgot that first time with each other and we never looked back the only thing I am sad about is she was killed at age 19

killed .. really nice ~
teens , children , are just in love for the idea of being in love , they grow up and the idea change , even if they were lucky enough to stay with one person till they grow up , there wont be something special about marriage ..

she gave her life in Viet nam for the freedom of others if she had not been killed there i have no question we would have still been with each other she was killed the day after I was reported killed in action and we did marry at age 13 and yes then all it took was a blood test and permission of parents

Oh dear, I'm sorry to hear that rickibrat. I too had a fiance die in a car accident and I can understand what you went through. At least you were able to share something that intimate with her before you lost her.

sorry for ur loss

umm...well that was many, many years ago and to this date, I have yet to regret it. Sorry, but it was a wonderful experience and I was ready for it so i don't know why I wouldn't do it. But you are, of course, entitled to your opinion and I respect that.

ummm...I'm like 46 now! And I suppose that would make him 48. And guess what, never in my entire life nor will I ever in my entire life, feel any regret. I was ready and he was very special to me. I didn't feel it was rushed at all. But everyone is entitled to their opinion....thanks for sharing yours.

I just talked to a guy who had sex for the first time at 8. He had a lot of sex young and really like it a lot.

ummm....no, I am almost 47 now in fact and looking back on those days, there is not one iota of regret there. I was ready, we loved each other and the experience was truly amazing. If I had to go back and do it all over again, I wouldn't change a thing!

she's in her 40s

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Thanks, I think it was too and to date, remains one of my favourite memories in my life.

Your words are touching, as I have a similar story. Even if we can never recapture that innocence, and our dreams of "forever" were so naive, I'll always treasure the memory and the hope. Thank you for sharing.

I'm sorry I missed your comment to my story! I wish everyone had a memory like and experience like you and both do. It's a wonderful thing and one that stays with you forever! Thanks for reading and leaving a comment, I appreciate it!

Boy I had some good times in a basement back when I was 16 . I lost mine in the woods at the high school during a basketball game to a girl that lived in the neighbor hood. We talked about doing it and then we did. I freaked out when I was going to ***, since no one ever talked to me about that. lol I did no use no rubber.....I pulled it out of her... because it felt strange down there and I did not know what was going on. I did not tell her I was a virgin so I did not freak out I just stood there as the 1st *********** of *** had ever came out of me. It seemed like it had lasted for ever and it had gotten on my hand. I remember wiping my hand on a tree to try and get most of it off. The sad thing was my hand stunk right along with ol' smitty who had just entered the tunel of a stinky young 16 yr old. The funny thing was I did not tell a soul that we did it that night. For the longest time I thought that was the way it was sopose to smell!

Sounds exciting but I'm sorry it wasn't more of how it should be. I think I was really lucky with my first time, compared to alot of other people I've heard from and their first experience. We all have to go through it though at some point....some younger, some older, but there is always a first time.

Very Kool experience!!

It was....sadly, it's not like that for everyone, though I wish it could be.

Very nice and sweet story!

Thanks Johnny I'm glad you enjoyed it!

You're not together now?

No, sadly not.

Lucky boy!

Lucky girl too..

we did not wait
we loved each other we were 12 years old
we tried many times to have a child thought the whole 7 years we were with each other we did it open in our house we shared with her mother we paid 1/3 of thehousing cost
i know they had to think we were the silly kids but we loved each other in way few can understand we shared the greates secrets of alkl with each other we walked side by side

we had just had a great time on r&r in japan when we got a recall for a mission into indian country that was on the 1/10 our last night with each other was the 12 in our room in the hotel we lived in. the next morning we were talking on the radio as we made the fianla turn to land when i told her i loved her the plane blew up we were kit with a sam the next day she was killed walking to her office in siagon thinking i was dead but i was n a coma she lost her life at 19 i lost my world 6 month later when i cam out of the coam to learn alli loved was gone

I am so sorry to hear your story. I can relate to how you felt as I lived through losing a very special guy at about the same age, though I can't imagine finding out 6 months later after it was all over. Hugs to you my friend....at least you had the time you had with her and got to share some very special moments.