I Regret...but At The Same Time I Don't!So I survived college a virgin. Then got a job to a different city. Never had a boyfriend before...new in a city with no one I know...I went into online dating (will never do this again)...met a guy that I'm still friends with. We went on a date...and on the first date he tried to have sex with me..he did foreplay etc and I told him to stop..I felt terrible afterwards and he later apologized bla bla. Things happened and he became my boyfriend and honestly I lost my virginity cause I felt kind of pressured by him...I didn't enjoy it AT ALL!!..and I thought maybe it's normal at first...but even the second time I didn't either...it was as if I was doing work that I didn't want to. I later broke off with him for his personality issues...but also one of the reasons was me not enjoying it with him.
I regret: because I didn't enjoy losing it. No pleasure whatsoever
I don't regret not waiting till marriage: because...I think the main reason I didn't enjoy it...is he's SMALL!!...if he was the guy I would've ended up marrying...my marriage sex life would've sucked!!!...I know sex isn't everything in marriage...but it's definitely what helps out.
On other hand...he's the only guy I've had sex with...so I don't know if it's my problem or his small size problem that's causing me not to enjoy sex cause I literally can NOT feel him inside me when he goes.