Hurts Even More When It Comes From Loved Ones

Sometimes it's my own family AND "friends" that make me feel like I'm completely worthless, useless, pathetic, a loser etc. I realize I have some serious issues within myself that I need to work out, and I understand my reputation has gone from good to bad to worse because of my own mistakes, but that doesn't make me less of a person! I still have feelings! And I don't like being compared to people my own age who have "turned out better" than me. It hurts to keep being reminded that I am a "disappointment" by the people in my life who are supposed to believe in me, not put me down because of my wrong choices in the past. Even when I genuinely am trying to turn my life around, I'm laughed at and mocked and not taken seriously. I've gone from being respected and admired to being ridiculed, rejected and treated like dirt. Some life.