Its the only time I feel happy, I dont feel unhappy otherwise (well, not anymore anyway) I feel nothing, I feel bored, I want a whole new life. Drugs give me that for a while.
Ugh.... Boredom is my biggest downfall. As long a I keep busy I'm good. Te secon I'm sitting and realize I have nothing to do or nowhere to go.. I pick up that phone, make a call... And away I go....